Naturally Altered States of Consciousness
My social practice includes naturally altered states of consciousness such as dissociation as a survival mechanism. My dissociation slides on a continuum that moves from the healthy focus of creativity to total emotional detachment. Until very recently my fragmented psyche existed in an aberrated state of disassociation from reality that prevented me from authentically loving another human being. That’s how I figured all of this out. I had to change so that I could learn how to love.
My choice to disconnect was affecting my ability to grow and evolve and so I had to liberate myself from my outdated childhood coping mechanisms. When I was very young I learned how to detach myself from the chaos and pain of my dysfunctional family. Now that I am emotionally whole I am learning to reconnect and reinvent my world.
Flowing in between worlds as intuitive energy my life has become a new media social practice.
By escaping reality I am able to increase my focus and concentration. As a child I hypnotized myself by reading both fiction and nonfiction. I developed the ability to think deeper but I lost something terrible in my emotional life. Only very recently have I resolved and healed my dissociation to become emotionally engaged in both intimate and social practice. I feel as if I have been born again into the feeling world. By learning to associate with everyone and everything my new social practice is radical inclusion. I feel like a totally different person today than I was just a few short years ago.
In psychology, the term dissociation describes a wide array of experiences from mild detachment from immediate surroundings to more severe detachment from physical and emotional experience. The major characteristic of all dissociative phenomena involves a detachment from reality, rather than a loss of reality as in psychosis.
Dissociation is commonly displayed on a continuum. In mild cases, dissociation can be regarded as a coping mechanism or defense mechanisms in seeking to master, minimize or tolerate stress – including boredom or conflict. At the nonpathological end of the continuum, dissociation describes common events such as daydreaming while driving a vehicle. Further along the continuum are non-pathological altered states of consciousness.
The grief of my father’s passing was the emotional catalyst that facilitated much of my most recent growth. Actually it was the final processing of my grief. My father passed three years ago and now I see what it all means. I create my reality as consciously as I choose which dream to purchase.
What if I just change my story. What if I choose to gift you with an alternate reality that I choose for myself? I am creating for you the same ideal spiritual world that I would create for myself.
Social Practice Empowerment
My subversive social practice is to use the media apparatus to unify the spiritual and material worlds. Creating contextual meaning and metaphor between objects by discussing the meaning of modern icons. Writing new narratives to deconstruct consumerism and return to the emotional baseline consciousness of divinity.