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In My Private Palm Springs Gay Sex, Silence is the New Everything

 

Palm Springs Gay Sex is About Meditative Silence. Studying meditation in Palm Springs, CA with Joel S. Goldsmith for the last eight years has taught me the practice of silence. The practice of the thundering silence is to be thrust face to face with pure, unadorned reality. Exactly who do I think I am?  Where am I going in life? What do I want from anyone?  Asking and answering these questions honestly for myself is the key to my existence in this moment. Goldsmith teaches the wisdom of keeping one’s own counsel. All great sages teach that the answers come from within. Even the 12 Steps of AA teach that: “We will intuitively know the answers to questions that used to baffle us.” 

 

Joel S. Goldsmith: The Mystical I: 41X9SQG21QL._SX349_BO1,204,203,200_

I have turned town the volume on my pop culture intake. I used to play in rock bands and voraciously devour novels, art, zeitgeist.  Ten years ago I began pulling back from the world when I went to alcohol rehab in Malibu. Now I have less in life than I have ever had and I am happier than I have ever been. Now in November of 2015 I am returning to a life of prayer and contemplation in Palm Springs.  

 

Silence in Palm Springs Gay Sex

I am looking forward to more and more silence in my life. I am excited to be returning to Palm Springs and the desert. I am publishing and broadcasting this new Palm Springs change of address so that you can find me and contact me.  The best way to reach me is via text at: 310-944-2055. I have a new job changing water into wine and walking on water so please respect my time with succinct text messages instead of long mobile phone conversations. I am transmuting my energy into mystical communion with the universe. Come along for the ride if you are interested in the eternal mysteries of life. 

Intuition, Inspiration, Imagination

 

Rudolph Steiner said that Christ clairvoyance was attained through intuition, inspiration and imagination. These are my tools now as I re-invent myself for my new life in the vast silence of eternity.  I am scaling back from the physical world. The pressing of the flesh is too gross and dense a vibration for staying awake to perfection. Sex is beautiful and to be practiced in moderation. 

I need to reinvent myself as a healer of the bridge between life and death. Preparing for death. Preparing for transition. Finding my niche and scratching it.  Not full on hospice changing bed pans and bathing people. Just: “Being There.”  Being here now.  Living my last years and days.  I don’t even know what I am saying. Never repeat or act upon what I say or do because I do not know what I am saying or doing. I am just going to rent a room in a condo in Palm Springs and pray & meditate my way into a brand new life with God. 

 

Vow of Silence

 

When I celebrated ten years of sobriety in AA I stopped talking in meetings. Now as I approach twelve years I have stopped listening because there are just too many words. AA is a really beautiful resource and practicing the spiritual principles contained in the 12 Steps saved my life from self-destructing via some type of alcohol related means. These days I owe AA gratitude and repayment pure and simple.  I have a need to give back to AA.  

Instead of giving back to AA I am wrongly going to AA looking for validation and love. I am hanging out at AA trying to be a good guy and socializing with people. The Primetime AA message just doesn’t resonate with the same rock and roll punch that it used to. And how could it? I am at ten years. I have lived it and practiced it. I have eleven years of sobriety and I need a little more than just AA. Of course. And I have been finding it with the Freemasons and Agape.   

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Introduce Myself to Palm Springs AA?  No Way!

 

Too often these days I catch myself using AA meetings as a social venue or to find Palm Springs Gay Sex. I enjoy the company of women and I get too gossipy, chatty and defective with their energy.  It is totally on me.  I need to broaden my social venues. I have my new social venue hit list. I am feeling good about my new social venues.  I am not feeling good about AA.  I keep checking my motives.  What do I want from people? Why am I so into West Hollywood AA?  Why am I talking to so many women and men at church and AA?  It is just too tempting to run to Palm Springs AA when I get down there next week.  I don’t want a life in AA. 

 

Masculine Palm Springs Gay Sex Life

 

I want a masculine mystic life in my Palm Springs gay sex life.  My intention is to be with other awakened me who are living in spiritual principles of honesty and gratitude. I will attract Godly men who know how to be grateful and walk in the sunlight of the spirit. Sunshine and fresh air. I deserve to have the best in life.

Opening myself mystically to the universe and my fellow man, I become the embodiment of consciousness for my tribe. I clean my sexual energy here and now. I connect to everyone here and now. I unconditionally love and unconditionally forgive all. I universalize my energy and transmute it to God. I am seeing myself for who I really am and I seem like such a desperate little character. I need to just open up to love and happiness and freedom. I need to get used to being a Palm Springs queer. 

Why am I so attracted to women if I like Palm Springs gay sex? I am a 60 year old man attracted to sexy women because I want to embody that energy. So I claim it and take it now.  From now on everything is about masculine and feminine energy.

The tantric unifies the masculine and feminine energy. My energy is free now. My energy gets really free down in Palm Springs. I have to be careful who I hang out with. I almost started swishing around after hanging out with J.F. in Palm Springs last summer.  Sometimes my thinking patterns even resemble Michael Beckwith these days because I have been at Agape so much lately. 

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Palm Springs Rejuvenation

 

I am feeling rejuvenated as I do my laundry, publish pages on gay Palm Springs and re-design this website. Once again I am creating here instead of just goofing off on Facebook making FB rich. Better to just keep plugging away here and increase my Palm Springs SEO. I will just have to let the chips fall where they may with the whole process server and other operatives climbing the walls of the Westchester Hotel. LA is just too expensive for me now if you know what I mean. Time to head back to the desert when I am loved and worshiped for my body and my mind. These days it is less about Palm Springs gay sex and more about God. 

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