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What cannot be communicated to the [m]other cannot be told to the self

The opposite of being traumatized is to communicate fully. Traumatic events are almost impossible to put into words. We all need someone to whom we can express our feelings that words cannot describe. Our initial imprints of the events of September 11 are not stories but images and feelings. We obtain sublime emotional gratification in…

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Liberation

ROAD TO RECOVERY

The road of recovery is the road of life. Working with trauma is as much about remembering how we survived as it is about what is broken. I survived my traumatic upbringing by self-medicating with drugs and alcohol. The most effective trauma treatment available to me was the plant based medicine called alcohol. However, no…

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BROKEN

The most broken man ever to recover from alcoholism. It is quite possible that I could be the most broken man ever to recover from childhood trauma. Only very recently have I miraculously recovered from posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD). By practicing love and forgiveness I am now aware of my traumatic childhood and stunted emotional…

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Liberation

Funny as in peculiar or funny ha ha?

Lose the Personalities and Recover Your Higher Power. The way to cure your alcoholism or drug addiction is to recover a higher power of your own understanding. My higher power works for me and probably nobody else. My higher power is constantly unfolding. Today my higher power is mindfulness. Sometimes I call my higher power…

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She’s not alcoholic, a licensed therapist, or a doctor but she knows A.A. gets it wrong

Everyone is selling recovery. Even comedians are selling recovery and that’s not funny! These days it seems like everyone is selling recovery and so I’m glad I got it for free before it was too late. I recovered from alcoholism in A.A. for free but Rachel Hart wants me to pay her to tell me…

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What were you thinking right before you acted out your childhood trauma?

There is no mind without mindfulness. Practicing mindfulness calms down the localized reflexive nervous system so that we are less likely to be thrown into fight, flight, freeze, or fuck. What were you thinking right before you threw yourself into a dry drunk? What was going on inside your mind right before you acted out…

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TRAUMATIC AWARENESS

Emotional things are emotionally discerned. Interior things are discerned by interoception. In much the same way that spiritual things are spiritually discerned, emotional things are emotionally discerned. Our emotions exist within our limbic systems. The only way to access our emotions is by practicing the ancient Eastern art of self-awareness. Interoception is accomplished by consciously…

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meditation on steroids

EEG charts measuring brain waves indicate the meditative state of consciousness. Yesterday I finished reading THE BODY KEEPS THE SCORE, Brain, Mind and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk. In Chapter 19, there is a section on using electro encephalograms (EEG) for meditation. Meditating helps heal trauma. A EEG machine…