Being Born


I am truly being born again. That term “born again” was big when I was back in college at Cal State Northridge. I was born again then and I am born again now. I am a born again natural man of God. I am letting God tell me what to do and how to be born. I feel clean and wholesome in the sunshine of the spirit.


I have ended my sexual warrior  decade. I have ended five years with Dr. Allen. I have ended three years of CMEN Malibu Men’s Retreat. I am free this Labor Day Weekend 2015 to be born again in God. Recreated in this writing recreated. Recreation. Recreation is re-creation and that word is born again in me. 

I am hurriedly creating this post just because I want to see the image of me in the bathtub next to the image of me against the blue painting in Diane’s condo. Diane DePould’s beautiful condominium in Westwood that I shot hundreds of photographs for three different websites in. Diane is one of my most important friends. She knows everything about me. She even knows my sexual history and is a touchstone for my re-birth as a masculine man of God in Los Angeles. There is a man shortage in LA and therefore I must truly man up to the situation.


Reborn Again in the

Second Row of Agape


You can find me in the second row of Agape where I am reborn as the re-creator of my relationship with God. I am the cleaner. The janitor of the God connection. When the doors of perception are cleansed I will stop listening to loud dissonant pop culture noise banging on my consciousness. I always knew giving up television would make me smarter and now that day has come.


Be reborn with me in eternity. Right now it is Thursday morning before Labor Day Weekend 2015. I will do some work to make some money to eat and then I will be back here for you. You are my mission and my life. Meditate. Mindfulness. I have feeling for you whoever you are to read my love in this blog. Amen. 


By Dean McAdams

Born a poor peckerwood in a Tujunga holler, Dean practiced secrets of the ancient & modern masters to end up liberated in the coastal paradise of West L.A.