During his eulogy of my father a Christian kid said that he could see my dad sitting there with a smirk on his face. This sums up my father and his entire life. My earth school father was Max the Smirk. Max’s personality was his primary defense mechanism the hallmark of which was pretending to be deaf and dumb.
Your Personality is a Mental Disease
Shyness or retreating from life is the primal mental illness. Pretending that the other person is harming you is it’s own form of mental abuse. Teaching people to be false is a form of child abuse. We have become a culture that has learned to accept falseness and lies. The goal in life is to attain pure baseline consciousness and not mask it out with personality defense mechanism such as playing dead. My father and mother tried to teach me to play dead to life. Actually playing emotionally dead was forced upon me and I had to play dead to survive.
One of the first things my mother instructed me on was that she hated feminine men. What she was really trying to say was that she hated me for reminding her of her father. I know this now but I did not know this at the time. My mother would openly tease me in front of my siblings. My mother would actually exert great effort to get my five year-old niece Sharon to also tease me.
The Sins of the Fathers
At the Los Angeles Superior Court probate trial in which my brother Dennis was removed at trustee, Dennis sat at the counsel table smirking and sniggering just like my parents taught us. I sat there observing the Judge look at my siblings and their illegitimate children with mild disgust.
The only appropriate defense mechanism is appropriately aggressive and intelligent communication.