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The Primetime AA Meeting on Friday Night in Santa Monica is Really an Emotional Health Meeting
Emotions are the senses of the soul speaking the language of intuition. A Primetime AA meeting is an emotional health meeting where intuition is developed for spiritual treatment of the diseased thinking manifested by alcoholism and addiction related maladies.
The purpose of attending a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous is to find God. The purpose of attending a Primetime AA emotional health meeting is to learn the day-to-day constant practice of the application of spiritual principles. Primetime AA is an effective emotional resource used by many non-alcoholics to learn about living the 12 Steps as a daily spiritual adventure.
Primetime Alcoholics Anonymous Meeting
New Freedom Friday: 7:30 p.m.
Christine Emmerson Reed Park
Santa Monica Tennis Courts
1133 7th Street at Wilshire Blvd.
Santa Monica, CA 90403
God Consciousness or Desire Consciousness?
Do I desire spiritual communion with my community or am I living in lustful adolescent desire for emotional security? What will I accomplish when I finally obtain that obscure object of my selfish desire? When I gratify my desire, will I obtain anything that I really need? When I satisfy my infantile ego will I be more broken and empty than when I began? Living desire to desire is not living in perfected unified consciousness and not living in recovery. Living in desire is living in disease.
Emotional Intelligence is Total Sensory Awareness
AA teaches me to think the drink through and an emotional intelligence meeting of Primetime AA teaches me to think the emotion through. Emotional intelligence is rationally applying total sensory awareness to my desires and other emotions. If I gratify my desire for sexual release what will I get? Is too much sexual release at age sixty bad for me? Am I wasting my emotional energy and capital? A spiritual treatment meeting can help me to get honest enough to self-identify what my own major malfunction is.
The 12 Steps teach that my level of self-honesty determines my level of recovery from my grave emotional and mental disorders symptomized as alcoholism. When I finally got honest and could see what I was really doing and who I was hanging out with, I was honestly disgusted with myself.
Desire Consciousness is Living in the Disease and Loving It
My unrealistic desire for love, security and affection is insatiable and impossible. Instead of gratifying myself with the material world I should be acting my age and gratifying myself spiritually. I am unrealistically expecting another person to do for me what I need to do for myself.
I need to only desire God because that is all that mystics get. God is all that is left for me and God is all I am ever going to get at this stage of the game. The highest level of desire is to become desireless.
Lawyers used to pay me minimum wage to type fast and die young by chasing legal filing deadlines for their law firms. They call them deadlines because I had a heart attack and flatlined out dead from dealing with them. Now it is time for me stay awake long enough to attain my desire of formless consciousness.
Zero Out Your Ego
My apathy has forced me to surrender my belief in the energy pattern that I need to receive anything from anyone. Now my practice is to stay awake to desiring to zero-out my egoic thinking to unified cosmic God consciousness during meditation. Staying awake to zeroing out the ego is staying awake to God consciousness.
Attending spiritual treatment emotional health meetings is a good investment of emotional capital. Stewarding my vast personal resource of subtle breath energy can relax my subconscious mind during meditation to release instinctual fear and pre-cognitive existential loathing. A kundalini yogi attains his power through breath. A kundalini yogi pays attention to where she is wasting energy on people, places and things that no longer serve her.
Emotional Investment in Self-Contained Status
Saibhang is a kundalini yoga term meaning self-existent and is a state of self-contained, always-complete status undisturbed by loss or gain. Saibhang also means self-supported.
A kundalini yogi is the support of himself. He is illuminated from his own self. He is enlightened by his own support. He does not need any other support. He himself is the support of each and every creation. He is great, supreme, endless, infinite power and he himself is the support of the entire creation. Being the support of the entire creation, He is manifested in the entire creation. He is looking after and taking care of the entire creation. Nobody can have the capability to create him and nobody can destroy him. Nobody can have the capability of being his support. He is omnipresent by virtue of his self-containment. He is desireless and self-evident.
The Only Way Out is to Go Straight Through It
The way I transcended desire was to desire it and do it until all the desire fell off and I was done with it. All desires lead to desirelessness, the very essence of ourselves.
If you want to become whole,
let yourself be partial.
If you want to become straight,
let yourself be crooked.
If you want to become full,
let yourself be empty,
If you want to be reborn,
let yourself die.
If you want to be given anything,
give everything up.
When the ancient Masters said,
If you want to be given everything,
give everything up.
-Tao Te Ching, 22, Lao Tsu
The only way out of desire is to just drive that little red corvette around and around the moon until the wheels fall off. Gratify each human need & desire and then move onto an emotional health meeting. But see everything for what it is. Observe for yourself the inherent disorder of homosexuality and the peculiar insatiableness of desire in gay culture. Run barefoot through the jungle and grab all the low hanging fruit you want, I sure the hell did. By all means do not repress anything that is legal. You must reach your own emotional bottom and authentic humility to attain the genuine surrender required for spiritual personal transformation.
When you are sick and tired of it all you may enjoy the golden silence of blissful solitude. Emotionally healthy we will flow into still desirelessness with kundalini yoga and chakra meditation. Liberate yourself from the bondage of both gay and straight and merge within yourself into the kundalini experience of pure consciousness called samadhi.
Flowing Into Stillness . . .
If you want to make love to someone, run your finger over their soul. When you find a hole, fill it with love. When you find a bleeding wound cauterize it with archetypal unified consciousness. If you want to make love to yourself go to an emotional health meeting and run your finger over your own soul. The emotions you feel are the way your own loving soul calls out to you. Emotions are the senses of your soul speaking the private language of loving intuition.
There will always be time for your desire if you chose to return to it. Maybe if you quiet your incessant desire you will observe the infinite radiance of your own consciousness basking in the luminosity of its’ own reflection. What is your desire? Maybe you are looking for a fleeting reflection of your own soul in the eyes of your lover. If that is what you desire then that is what you will certainly find.
Train your emotions to desire that which will serve you well. Go to an emotional health meeting and practice the radical self-honesty that will free you from your learned mental illness. Develop wisdom at an emotional health meeting to train yourself to wisely gratify your physical needs. Your emotional and spiritual endeavors will serve you better than your arduous physical gratifications.