Eighteen months ago I had my chest ripped open and my heart rebuilt by a cardiothoracic surgeon in Center City, Philadelphia. The ketamine anesthesia sent me into a two week psychedelic trip in which I thought the doctor was trying to kill me for being bisexual. It was as if I was in the cardiology unit of a psychiatric hospital for the spiritually sick. I was in Philadelphia working for a creep I hated who ended up saving my life. Be careful who you flush down the toilet because that may be your degenerate colleague who will end up saving your life. Sometimes my life looks like a surrealistic emotionally laden fruitcake cartoon.
HEART WHOLENESS: Once you have healed your heart and are able to trust and love freely then you can learn to enjoy authentic feminine receptiveness. We are all emotionally vulnerable until we learn how to take care of ourselves. Once you yourself are whole you will intuitively understand the subtle art of non-engagement. Heal your vulnerability by becoming emotionally robust. My heart broke wide open and then inhaled the returning tsunami backwash of love. The purpose of this article is to open my heart to the new love and beauty that has opened up in my life.
Little by little we all become whole. Prayer and meditation center me into my wholeness that is and was always there. By walking through my darkness I have become whole. The darkness has taught me about the importance of the light.
Know Thy Shadow
Carl Jung stated the shadow to be the unknown dark side of the personality. According to Jung, the shadow, in being instinctive and irrational, is prone to psychological projection, in which a perceived personal inferiority is recognised as a perceived moral deficiency in someone else. Jung writes that if these projections remain hidden, “The projection-making factor (the Shadow archetype) then has a free hand and can realize its object–if it has one–or bring about some other situation characteristic of its power.” These projections insulate and harm individuals by acting as a constantly thickening veil of illusion between the ego and the real world.
Eighteen months after it happened I am still walking around in a state of “shock gratitude” after waking up in that hospital in Philadelphia after my emergency triple by-pass open heart surgery.
God had given me a brand new life in the spiritual light of pure baseline consciousness.
I am no longer emotionally vulnerable as I move about socializing with total strangers from all walks of life. I am the silent observer practicing the subtle art of non-engagement. My heart has been zeroed out to baseline love.