Energy Transmutation

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Energy Balance

Yoga balance both on and off the yoga mat leads to union with the divine and the planet. Research and investigation has always been my forte and my passion. Redemption finds me cleaning up my act and my community. Work gives life meaning and purpose. My work is infused with love and sex. Investigating gay sex criminals makes me lose interest gay sex and so I balance my energy by writing about women. Meditating into the sacred space of divine femininity purifies and balances my sexual energy.

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I stopped hanging out in Palm Springs a few months ago. For a while I was having fun talking to eighty year-old women over a really nice $1.00 lunch at the Mizel Center, but I snapped out of it. This desert has always been like my backyard to me. The women and the vibe from here all the way to Bakersfield are pure LA. LA is my home and LA women are my thing. Women are my primary sexual attraction and men are my preference at this stage of my life. There is no gay or straight. There really is no other. The lover is a reflection of the love.

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I constructed the main component of a male sex robot, powered by a 7.5 amp reciprocating saw. My robot is a sawzall with a Doc Johnson Vac-U-lock attachment. The emotional connection is amazing. 

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Sexual Energy Transmutation

It has been over two weeks since my last full ejaculation and my stored up sexual energy is charged up enough to be available for conscious transmutation into higher forms. By focusing my energy I am able to heal the damaged dorsal nerve on my right side that burns with post herpetic neuralgia. My meditative mind melts the burn away.

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The Balance Between Pleasure and Pain

As my six week shingles rash slowly healed, the intense pain was replaced by exquisite pleasure. I felt a ticking of healing coolness where previously there had been white hot stabbing knives.  For the past two years the intense burning pain of the resulting post herpetic neuralgia sometimes transforms into pleasurable pain.  The right side of my body is a complex electrical short circuit of nerves. My personal medical research indicates that the DNA in my nerves has been damaged by the shingles outbreak two years ago. My personal spiritual experience is that balance with the divine will transform my damaged nerves into perfect health and well being. It is working. The pain is getting less and less. 

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By Dean McAdams

Born a poor peckerwood in a Tujunga holler, Dean practiced secrets of the ancient & modern masters to end up liberated in the coastal paradise of West L.A.